You make me sad.

today again the breakdown appears.i can't stand it.i don't like to be sad when everyone is smiling.

I want to smile again like the last time.Please god,give me a sign that i can be happy.help me move on from this misery which i try to control.it's been few days and she didn't even bother to message me saying hi. what is the meaning of this? is her door really close for me this time. 

The answer is....