The one thing that i didn't get to say to you.

Were your feelings always true or was i all along your rebound?

If you are happy,then i want to be happy too.

Forget me not,Forget me. :(

Hoping the time would come when we meet again.

I hope she will go out with me.I'm expecting so much and i just don't want to be the one very very disappointed in the end...Fools with hope,dies of coldness and objections.

To me you are perfect,My wasted heart will love you.

Jiaqi,

          I'm sorry for my past mistakes.I know i didn't treat you well enough.

I thought i was always the one right.Now i realised,You open up my heart.You are nice,kind and so sweet. I will make up my past mistakes to be a better monster for you. I will contact you more,Go out with you more and hopefully i will cure your broken heart to A full love heart.

Grant your wishes,Give your kisses. :)

Goodnight people,

                                 Jiaqi is someone special :)

Lead me to your heart.

I want to fall for her again this time.I'm really happy to be with her. Her smile,her laugh,the way she sleeps,Her happiness.I love it all.

I'm not giving up.i made up my mind. :)

I love her. 

Happy 2009 soon.Yes I want you back in my life.

Knock on my door please.

look at the bright side

hey people i'm sad again.i don't know why. so frustating but what can i do? i had to move on. 

I just don't know what to do,there's come a time when i get confused in life.Choosing to move on or stay strong and wait.This time is now.

It's okay,few weeks already and i'm getting stronger.

So my word is that i can't fall yet and surrender.I can fight it.That is what  i'm meant for.

:)

Keep love as your golden rule.

Forgiving lightens you up.

Will this new year be the same again for me? 

Keep our wishes come true

I thought she said we could still be friends,but in the end she's running away again. 

Where's our promises? I wish i can turn back time and take back what i said.

i don't like giving up in a relationship.Why am i the only one feeling this way? 

I promised only three months of absent,but still i had some financial difficulties.

I wish the best for everyone.

Kau pijak hatiku lagi

Waktu kita sama sambut hari lahir

Ku beri hadiah, hadiah bunga

Cantik,engkau memang cantik

izinkan aku menetap wajahmu lagi

Kau pijak hati ku lagi

Tinggi harapanku buatmu

Tak ku sangka ia hanya setengah jalan

Jika memori kita simpan dalam cakera

Kan ku mainkan sampai bila bila masa

Cantik,engkau memang cantik

Izinkan aku menetap wajahmu lagi.

This is a man whose hope of getting her back failed and he moved on without seeing her the last time. 

Well this lyrics has strong words and i pity this guy. 

all the best to other couples.

Let's make monday a happy day.

OUT the whole day.!

My hands are yours to hold.

Thought of celebrating with another hand this new year.

I'm smiling today.Everybody loves me today.People loves my company.

I want to go ice-skating at kallang leisure park.I want to be with the snow.

I want to be cold and i want a warmth person to warm me up.

The memories will recorded in my mind.

What was i thinking this few days.Why must i be sad? why can't i be happy. :) 

everything i do meant something .

HAHA 

I want love,to be loved again.

I'm not repeating history,i"m creating a new History.

HAHA 

Let's count the days to new year with me. :) 

Save your wishes,keep your kisses. 

Forget you not,forget the pain YES! 

I want to smile.!! AGAIN! 

haha

sleepy saturday.

I started to write this in the morning before i'm off for work.

It's so fresh after having enough sleep.just bought myself a new tight bootcut jeans.yeah finally i decided to pamper myself. I'm gonna pamper myself nw. I will start getting stuff for myself and groomed myself. now i'm playing with my little cousin,he talks to me about spiderman. 

Morning spiderman,afternoon spiderman,night spiderman..so i laugh about it. 

He so thin and cute and hell yeah such a little devil.

I will travel more next year.this i promise to myself.

I will smile for present 2008 'saranghaeyo'

i realise the more i let it go,the more i'm smiling.not for the wrong reason but for the reason it happen for my sake. I still cherish her and she will hold a special place in my heart.
Yes i will start a new me by next year.
She understands my needs this year and i won't blame her.i just wish her good luck in her life.
I will be sad and happy at times but i will move on grow up.
Life for me now is majority to the sad part because i went through a lot of difficulties in my life.
Debts,failed love life,loved one passing away this all i went through early.
I know my partner will come to me one day.
I will see the world and the world will see me.
I'm ready for next year's challenge.

Zaidi=Loving,honest and the one to make a smile on people's face.
So 2009 prepare for me. I will move forward.
FORWARD! MANEUVER FORWARD!

To me You are perfect and my wasted heart will love you

what can i say?

I wish i can be in love with my best friend.The idea of it is better and less hurtful.

The thoughts of having a girl best friend never occur to me before.I think i start finding a new best friend.A female one,i already have one at work but will not go on further but friends.

I keep to listening to jason mraz 'lucky' today

I wish to have a duet with a female singer too.hahahahahahahahaha.

If i'm smiling,thanks to you :)

It's coming :)

My new girlfriend should be coming by next year,she may be older than me.bt who cares!! i take care of her!! hahahahahahahahahahahaha. I will call her Lily. :) 

I'm gonna be a happy man soon...She's coming soon. hmmm counting and counting definitely no use.so i just work and wait,work and wait,work and wait.school,work and wait. and finally Lily appears. haha by next year. Please zaidi wait.

i love the rain

The rain makes me smile today,i dunno for what reason today.Everyone is in the house today and just came back from zoukout.So i guess all are pretty tired but i'm not.I didn't go zoukout because i don't feel like it and i just want to spend time at home surfing the net.

And from now,i'm just gonna work till school reopens and i'm gonna change for the better.I will have a future.This i promise to myself.

Smile? can i?

Today i feel so quiet again.what is that bothers me so much? Why can't i think straight today.i'm trying to let go but i know to really move on is too really accept my changes and be happy.I know my name is meant for success and i do whatever it takes to be.I will be happy.I will succeed. 

For my name is zaidi.

You make me sad.

today again the breakdown appears.i can't stand it.i don't like to be sad when everyone is smiling.

I want to smile again like the last time.Please god,give me a sign that i can be happy.help me move on from this misery which i try to control.it's been few days and she didn't even bother to message me saying hi. what is the meaning of this? is her door really close for me this time. 

The answer is....

Why breakdowns appear out of sudden.

back from work. darn i breakdown just now.again for similar reasons.i guess the more i think about her the more it bothers me to feel what was my biggest mistake.i'm sad again today. If she read this tell her i'm very sorry. if there was another chance,i will really make her happy. 

Those moments that i thought i could forget is haunting me again.

Please forgive me and i know we both moved on.so only her words could make this relationship happen again. Please god.bless us again.

run with the wind

Hey i just got home :),today was tiring.I played games for 10 hours straight till my eyes got twisted.haha kidding. well today was quite an awesome day actually.i didn't i can make lots of people happy with my mouth,i always thought they were noisy.Some people need people like me to entertain them and i can't never stop talking and it doesn't tires me.haha

I guess i can grow up working as a motivational speaker. *winks* 

These few days were such a joyous day for me.My family and friends were there for me to comfort me and now i'm not just smiling but glowing :). Thanks to them i smile like a lighthouse now.The past is already forgotten and i don't need the past like i used to with my dear life.Things have changed and ME have move on to the old happy loud cheerful zaidi.hmmmm 

night 

Think about it,was it really worth to cry for that past.

i can't wait for 2009 to start soon. This may sound crazy but i'm turning 19 soon and gosh i have to serve the army. This is going to be both fun and worrying. Fun is the sooner i serve the army the sooner i'm going out. Worries is that i have to plan what i'm going to do and what i'm going to become. Is it for the good or is it for the worse ? Gosh it is scary? 

And yes i need to make loads of money. Having money with you all the time makes you less worry. haha.

i wish my future would be the best days of my life. 

Imagine 'loaded',having a happy family,World travel,soul mate who loves to travel and most importantly being there as someone useful to the future. 

goodnight :)

Look how life shines for you,

Day by day,i'm getting stronger.I like to thank my family and friends for such strong encouragement.They keep me strong for few days giving me advice to make me a more loving guy rather than someone full of hatred.I admit i hate her for this few days but hey the more i hate,the more i suffer so why not i let it go and love others more.

I'm much more happy now than those few miserable days and i never blame anyone for it is my mistakes but they say we learnt from it.

Now i'm waiting for my real girlfriend coming out soon probably never and she won't leave me,EVER. HAHA. All i got to do is take care of her,feed her oil and clean her up.haha.

So right now,I keep smiling and no more relationship for now.So girls don't ever think of giving me your numbers.I'm nt interested now.

bye